Goodbye Sweet Sophie...

Murphy's Mom here...

Tonight my heart is breaking. A piece of me is missing, gone forever...my beautiful sweet gentle Sophie has gone to the rainbow bridge. It was with a heavy heart that I helped her make the transition. I have so many doubts...even though every inch of my brain told me it was time to help her make that journey, at the same time every inch of my heart told me it was too soon.

As I write this, I can hear an enormous fireworks display being set off...literally. My house is located close enough to the football stadium to hear the fireworks celebrations when a game is going on. Tonight however, the celebration is in honor of Sophie KitTON and the love and joy she has brought to my life for over 17 years.

The thought of falling asleep tonight, without her soft fur against my skin...without her strong purr in my ear is more than I can bear. Even now sitting here in front of the computer, I expect her to come and sit next to me...waiting for me to pick her up so she can lie in my lap while I type.

Sophie has been my one constant for so long.

And now she's gone.

I know she's in a better place. Rubbing, purring and headbutting against Bristol, Tyler and Hannah. Free of the evils of cancer, free of pain and discomfort. Free of taking medicine every day, twice a day.

I miss her though, I want my kitty back...with every fiber of my being. If I could have one Christmas wish it would be to have her back. Even if it were just for one more night.

I love you, Sophie KitTON.

Rest in peace

Sophie KitTON

Mom is kinda sad these days...Sophie KitTON is sick, and is not going to get better.

You see, Sophie KitTON has lymphoma. She was diagnosed over 3 years ago and Mom has been treating her with lots of medicines. She is such a good kitty! Every morning and every night she takes her pills without a complaint.

Earlier this month, Sophie had to go to the special list for her regular 8 week checkup. It was there that Mom found out some bad news. The betterinarian says there's a mass on Sophie liver. She is not sure if the lymphoma has spread, or if it is a different type of liver cancer, but either way its not good news.

Mom had to make the hard decision. The betterinarian wanted to do something called an uhltra-sound and biop-sea to find out exactly what is wrong with Sophie KitTON.

Mom said no. Sophie KitTON has had enough.

That was a very hard decision...but Sophie KitTON turned 17 in August and has had a VERY full life. 3+ years of living with lymphoma and keeping it at bay. Mom say's that's 3+ years longer than she thought Sophie KitTON would be around. Its really not fair to Sophie to put her thru any more. Sophie told me she is tired of having to go to the betterinarian every 8 weeks for blood work. She doesnt mind the pills, but she doesn't want more surgeries. And she sure as heck doesnt want to have to take IV drugs to fight the liver lymphoma, if that is what it is.

So, now we are waiting. The betterinarian told Mom it could be 6 weeks...or it could be 9 months. It all just depends on what it is.

But now...after only 2 weeks, Sophie KitTON isnt eating very well. It prolly doesnt help that I keep stealin her foodables...but they do taste oh so yummy. She also has kind of a fat belly, which is strange since she isnt eating much. Mom said she prolly has fluid in her abdomen, but without more tests its hard to know.

Now its just about quality of life for Sophie. She is gettin all kinds of attention, and Mom won't even let me harass her anymore. Life is definitely not fair, but I guess its all about Sophie right now. I just keep leanin against Mom so she knows she is making the right decision, as hard as it is. It doesn't always stop Mom's eyes from leaking though. 17 years isn't long enough.

She's a lucky KitTON...over 17 years with Mom. I can only hope to grow that old one day!